wow [ Posted on April 16, 2009 @ 5:43 pm ] wow i havent writen in this in like 2 years. it was crazy looking back at everything ive written. i was such a loser lol.. and a drama queen. but alot has changed and i have grown for the most part. i finally found myself and i love who i am. im in college now and the time has gone so fast. ive made a ton of new friends and still have all my friends from home. well most of them at least. kourtney dana n krysta still continue to be my best friends through thick n thin. ive reopened old friendships aka nikki who is now one of my besties. im pretty content with my life and cnt wait for this summer :) umm i guess thats it for now Read (1) Post Comment

track [ Posted on January 31, 2007 @ 12:00 am ] i cnt wait for spring.. i need to the run track and lose some weight... Post Comment

november 27 [ Posted on November 27, 2006 @ 5:05 pm ] makes THREE count em THREE MONTHS! <3 Ashley <3's Suley Post Comment

november 22 [ Posted on November 16, 2006 @ 5:40 pm ] im going to the silverstein concert!!! Read (1) Post Comment

time to wipe the dust off [ Posted on October 17, 2006 @ 5:46 pm ] havent really written in a while but idk.. something about the weather wants me to start writing again.. Post Comment

[ Posted on September 14, 2006 @ 5:33 pm ] i fucking hate when people are pissed and they take it out on you Post Comment

im an asshole [ Posted on September 05, 2006 @ 9:42 pm ] i did a fucked up thing n i wish i could just take it back but whats done is done n i wish that i can make it up to her sum way sum how i feel like shit n wish i didnt do what i did she deserves better than me i fucked up once again Post Comment

[ Posted on August 19, 2006 @ 11:58 pm ] never thought this day would come but it has im happy where im at.. you can have yur stuff back i think its finally time to move on.. Post Comment

[ Posted on August 12, 2006 @ 3:33 pm ] i was looking at a couple of my friends myspace pics n i noticed how much everyone has changed.. everyone has gotten prettier n have their own styles n then yu look at me ive pretty much stayed the same.. i feel like the ugly duckling among them but i dont know why?? whatever im an idiot neways Post Comment

[ Posted on July 31, 2006 @ 1:00 am ] i like to drink n dial..especially when i call nikki..hehe :P Post Comment

[ Posted on July 29, 2006 @ 2:08 pm ] yea its fucked up when yu think bout it but what can i say im a fucked up person but i havent done nething like that to yu n never will and come to think of it im guna stop doin it to her cuz thats fucked up of me n i dont wana be that kinda person Post Comment

[ Posted on July 11, 2006 @ 2:26 pm ] ever meet someone who yu had so much in common with that they could be like yur twin or something? i met this girl suely and so much shit between us is the same its kinda scary. Post Comment

life [ Posted on July 05, 2006 @ 9:21 pm ] As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. ~anonymous~ Post Comment

control - alexisonfire [ Posted on June 27, 2006 @ 1:18 pm ] Get as Ringtone Rate this song: Rated 14 times: 94% Discuss this artist and song Lyrics submited by: raistlin this burden's not a heavy one but I assure you, it's present this burden's not a heavy one but I assure you, it is present you say that you're in control you say that you are i can't think of a time when you looked less alive you said, "Wait until light, my dear" just wait until light one more day will go by maybe today you should try look past the mirror and find look past the mirror that there's something inside something more to your life my words won't heal you now my words won't heal it is you who decides it is you who decides this burden's not a heavy one but I assure you, it's present this burden's not a heavy one i assure you believe that you are just fine believe that you are you'll feel so alive you'll feel so alive be what you are now (be what you are) be what you are do not keep it inside that hate will not subside be what you are now (be what you are) be what you are do not keep it inside that hate will not subside it's you, decide it's you, decide so alive you'll feel so alive this burden's not a heavy one but I assure, I assure you this burden's not a heavy one not a heavy one not a heavy one Post Comment

boooo [ Posted on June 24, 2006 @ 10:13 am ] this past few days have been awesome. kellee theresa dave n everyone made my last couple of days amazing. good bye new jersey, here i come boring south carolina. Read (2) Post Comment

weird night [ Posted on June 24, 2006 @ 10:07 am ] ever been to a place you've been before but totally feel unwelcomed... a couple nights ago i went to this park in west paterson with fran brian sean n soka. it was like 12 at night everything was awseome. we were all having a good time. we were calm n realxed. nothing had bothered us. well last night me thersa fran brian dave n kellee went to the same park, but everything was different. we were all tense n paronoid. we kept hearing noises n shit. it wasnt like the last time we went. brian n kellee saw things walking around. we heard the swing moving but we didnt see neone there. it was just really weird n creepy. something obviously didnt want us there n we all could feel it. so we all grabbed our shit n left as fast as we could. Post Comment

fun night [ Posted on June 21, 2006 @ 12:36 am ] so today was the last day of school. i had one final which was geometry n it was easy as fuck. came home cleaned n then justin picked me up. we went to krystas house n bosco n ben were there. we hung around n then me krys n justin went to dunkin doughnuts. we came bak hung around n took pics. justin n krysta dropped me off at the mall. i met up with kellee n hung around till she got out. dave picked us up n we went to seans house. hung out with sean n shot paint balls in his bathroom. we filled up a basketball n decided we wanted to play. me kellee n dave picked up brian n fran. we wnt to the pal to play sum basketball. but when we got there we soon found out their werent ne rims. so we ended up meeting john sean n walt at memorial. we played whore n watched dave n kellee play one on one. took sum pics. there was a tweety bird umbrella in daves car. kellee took it out n danced around with it. i took it n shoved it in her ass. john chased kellee around n picked her up n roller bladed with her. sean gave me sum hot sauce to try. it was fuckin hott. my mouth got numb. he was like dont touch your fave with that hand n wash it with vinegar. i wiped it on his face n his face started to burn. walt tried it as well. it took us forever but we finally picked a place to eat. n of course at the end we ended up goin to six brotheres. had a spit ball fight with walt n john. john took a packet of sugar n blew it in my face. i took a packet of sugar n dunped it on his head. i took amother packet n put it down frans shirt. i must have ate like ten packets of sugar. we ate n shot spitballs at each other. fran ate a olive off me n kellee almost pucked. we hung out in the parking lot. kellee n dave left cuz his car was fucked up. me sean fran brian n john went to a park. me n john fought on a log. i got a splinter. we kicked a ball around. i had to pee. so i sat on a bench and peed a big ass puddle. we hung around n shit. now im home n tired as fuck. i go driving tomorrow. Post Comment

from first to last [ Posted on June 19, 2006 @ 9:28 pm ] i heard this song when i was driving with justin n idk i really like it.. its called emily by: from first to last Smiles and her laughter its the only thing that I've been waiting for a time regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time ...the only thing that I've been waiting for. I hope its something worth the waiting cause its the only time that I ever feel real thunder storms could never stop me cause there's no one in the world like Emily she's simple yet confusing her sparkling eyes make me weak and my words, they tremble days seem like years in this month of December the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep and never will I give up trying because you're everything to me I hope its something worth the waiting its the only time that I ever feel real thunder storms could never stop me cause there's no one in the world like Emily. Read (1) Post Comment

lbi [ Posted on June 17, 2006 @ 2:00 pm ] yeaterday was fucking awesome.. went down to LBI with konrad n met up with dan shelly perry dj manda alex erica bethann and others.. we made it down in like an hour n half when its usually like a 2 hour ride.. when we first got their we went straight to the beach the water was amazing it was a lil cold but not that bad dan tackled manda and they were wrestleing in the sand.. shelley went to help manda but since shes blind (literally) she attacked manda in stead it was really funny.. then dan burried dave in up to his knees n his arms he looked like he had stubs lmao...we went back to the house n just hung around tlkin n shit n took showers.. me n shelly had a good converstaion on the upper porch for like an hour n i hung out on the roof for a lil with manda n kanrad.. we made hot dogs burgers n pasta mmm very good.. so we started drinkin a lil then it got dark so me manda erica n kevin went to the beach.. it was so cold cuz the damn wind n the sand was numbin my toes... we sat on a blanket n watched the stars it was beautiful.. erica n kevin went into the water i thought they were nuts but they sed the water was really warm..we went bak to the house n everyone was drikin n we made sum really good drinks like vodka w/redbull.. this butterscotch vodka with gingerale... we played beer pong haha n my team of cousre lost.. it was really cool cuz shelley was playing n she was really good.. since she couldnt see the cups sumone would snap directly over them n she knew wheer to aim.. we all got wasted n shit.. so me shelly dj manda n dan were all hangin in the one bedroom n its cool cuz dan has only one eye n he was telling us that he had a fake eye so we made him put it in.. it waws awesome it actually looked like a real eye it cool its just like a really extremely thick contact..so we were all just chiilin n we hear konrads car speed off so we were like oh shit hes fuckin drunk off his ass n we ran outside n he was gone.. we called his phone but the dumdass left it in the house.. so were all freakin out n me dj n manda walk up the street to find him n sure enough ten mins later we found him.. we brought him bak to the house n perry took his keys n we made him go to bed... so were all hangin in the kitchen taken jello shot which were so fuckin strong they had mad everclear in them then we started taken shot of malibu n shit.. we had so much liquor.. i didnt get drunk but i was feelin pretty good.. so we ended up goin to bed at like 3.. we set our alarms for 5 so we could see the sunrise but none of us could get our lazy asses outta bed.. we all got up at 8 cuz we needed to clean the house n be all packed by 11.. we cleaned n shit n then when were almost done perry comes in n is like yeoo im sry guys but i just found out we didnt need to clean they hire ppl to clean when we leave ha all that work for nuttin..yea so now im home n tired as fuck im gunna take a nap.. Read (1) Post Comment

[ Posted on June 15, 2006 @ 7:49 pm ] Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person, and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much? So much it's like choking down the embers of a great blaze. It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds. You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment. And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have.. I'll never have.. I'll never... Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.. standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in. But this table for one has become bearable. I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you. Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much? So much it's like choking down the embers of a great blaze. It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds. And you let this one person come down.. come down. I cherish you.. I cherish you. Post Comment

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